I have never gone through as many trials at one time as I am now. I wish they were small ones, but in all honesty, I believe they are as big as they get next to the death of a child or beloved spouse. You know that stress index they have with the point values. They say a score of 150 puts you at a 50-50 chance of developing illness because of high stress, a score of 300 puts you at a 90% chance of developing illness. Yeah, well my score is 467. I will probably die soon, so come wish me goodbye.
I really am a basket case sometimes. I wasn't going to blog about it, but you know, it's there. It's real. And right now, it is really what I am going through and although tomorrow I will get back to blogging about pretty things and wonderful kids and sunshiney crap, today I am pissed, and tired, and feel like I can't get a freaking break anywhere!
Anyone know how to fix sprinklers? I can't do it again, I've looked them over, and I can't fix it this time. I have fixed them several times this summer, in fact I have repaired several appliances this summer too. I have taken my car to the shop too many times to count (I'm dropping it off tomorrow morning at 8:00), and I just can't do it anymore.
I can't sleep at night, I just lay there worrying or crying, and then I have to get up at 7:00 to get to work by 8:00. Okay, this is turning into a full blown pity party. I'm not going to continue this here.
Tune in tomorrow for pretty things, happy kids, and other sunshiney crap. Sorry for the reality blast!
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3 years ago
4 comments:
I really love you so much and if it feels good to share this, then share it! Because everyone loves you and cares about you. And I think you're entitled to more than a pity part--which sounds so pithy, it's more like you're entitled to a great deal of sympathy and love and a great big unload. Love you. ((hug))
I'm bringing diet Dr. Pepper, vanilla oreos, "Beaches" video, See's chocolates, and a Nora Jones CD to your pitty party. Can we float in your pool during the party?
I am so sorry KK. You have been such a trouper about everything. I have included you in my Wake and Worry during the last 3 months.
I love you. ((Hugs))
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Lots of hugs from California too. I am sorry you had a crappy day and so sorry that you are having such a difficult set of circumstances to deal with. I know that you won't be given more than you can bear--but you must be feeling like you are right at that limit. You are such a talented, smart woman. You will come out on top.
Okay ... that's it. I have to find some kind of service that tells me when my sister posts a blog that I want to know about.
I'm so glad you're coming to visit this week! Looking very forward to catching up.
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